Christmas Caroling

CHOIR IS MY LIFE!!

Wait for so many years,

this year we got the chances to join the Christmas caroling.

It is a new challenge since most of us are "zero" experience to join the caroling.

Since November,

we start our practice to learn for around 20 songs.

Of course,

most of the songs we recognize it before.

But, recognize it doesn't mean that we know how to sing the note correctly.

Some more,

we are train for singing patriotic song but not this kind of songs.

This is really challenge for us,

we are too woody when singing Christmas song. haha...

Anyway, we do enjoy the caroling.

Wait, let me post some photos...

Our 1st time perform at Times Square - 29/11/2009

Our performance at One World as below:

hahaha...you know, I like ss and always ss-ing~~ =)

hahaha...we took photo with Fatimah NG and Cockeyed CHIA

It's really funny!!! hahahahaha...

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Warming up~~Position, please!!

Segar Band from Rawang - SMK SERI GARING

I'm so happy to know you guys and perform together with you all.

You all are so impress me~~

I really hope to know you all more.

Anyway, you all will always in my heart, deeply~

haha...Sampat gong and Sampat po~~

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Our last day performance at Times Square (before performance)

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On the stage

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Thank you for giving me the best memories i ever had at 2009!!!

LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!

这么多年的愿望终于实现了，

我记得在我大学一年级的时候，

我们就又说过，有一天我们要唱Caroling，

5年后的今天，我们实现了诺言，

或许某些成员没办法出席，

但，我们还是成功了。

所以说没有什么事是做不到的，只是时间问题。

我很庆辛，我选了一条正确的路，

留在这里。

我好想念家，好想念家人，

但是，我一直挣扎着，就为了今天，

终于愿望愿望实现了。

可以回了吧？

哈哈··· 还是不行也！我的硕士论文未写完，毕不了业呢！

写完它，又是一年后的事···

其实，我又开始挣扎了···

我的心在摇摆，我想回家，可是在这里有不同的人事物，

可以说我的好朋友、我的最爱和最多的回忆都在这里。

回去砂拉越，对，我一样有朋友，

只是，我找不到我的乐趣，我最爱的XUM team 不在那儿···

参加了6年的choir，会随着我回家的决定，而被我埋葬···

当然，XUM team还存在，

只是，随着我的离开，它对我而言，只是一个回忆，不再是我可以追随的目标。

我记得我说过：choir 是我的生命。

没有它，我不知我怎么可以在这里生存6年。

我相信，如果不是choir，在3年前，一毕业，我应该收一收包袱回家去了~~

其实，我真的很感恩，上帝为我选了一条我一辈子都不会后悔的路！

谢谢你！

不管将来我选择什么路，至少，回忆一样伴随着我！

My Birthday Celebration Part 2

yea~~~Thanks to those who are celebrate and send wishes to me!!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

IT'S WARM & TOUCH... :)

How am I celebrate my birthday?

1st round:



Dinner with my dearest friends: SokKuan, YenWai and HuiWen. We met at Mid Valley at 7pm. Before that, I went to HuiWen's Witchery Cafe which located at Kuchai Lama. Then, 630pm, we depart to MV together. We are not decide yet the place to have our dinner. But then, luckily, without any hesitation, SK and Wai decided to go Pasta Zanmai.



That is my 2nd time be there. I like the food in Pasta Zanmai, especially the soup Pasta. hehe...may be also because of I like to eat noodle with soup. :p




yea~ here it is! Teppanyaki Chicken Soup Pasta

hehe...what is the 2nd dish? The 2nd dish is the Squid Ink Pasta. It tastes delicious and smells good. Just very ugly after you finish eat it. Your lips and teethes will become black, like poisoning. Let me show you all. LOL



Seafood Squid Ink Pasta

Black enough or not? haha...Let see my mouth after eat this:

haha....look at my lips and teethes....Ugly, right? I know. Stop laughing, please!




Unagi Pizza

Besides, we ordered a Pizza too. Feel weird with the mixture, right? But, it's really nice! I never know that unagi + seaweed + half boiled egg + pizza = perfect match. :)
It's really match to eat together!
Just like fish needs water, it is so natural~~ :p



Fruits Tea

Oh yea~ must introduce the drinks too. We ordered a jug of fruits tea.
Sour and sweet fruits mixed with tea.
Smell good, taste good.
Feel fresh after eat too much food..
The jug is special, it is around 30cm tall and thin.




Fried Soft Shell Crab

A Side-Dish! The soft shell crab is match with the sour sauce too~~
wa~~ I want to eat again...
It's s000000 delicious....

dang dang dang dang....
hehe....my birthday cake is coming~~
Bought from Jusco.
Thanks again to Hui Wen, Sok Kuan and Wai Wai~~



Everyone eat 1/4 cake. Oh my~ I eat 1/4 ler...That is really crazy to eat that much of cake.
As you all know, I don't like cake.
So, I requested to have 26 KFC Fried Chicken as my birthday cake next year.
hehe....may my wish comes true~~ LOL

After finished the cake, we went to Nyonya Color yamcha.
It's so thirsty after eat the cake.


Wait for my Birthday Celebration Part 3...
Coming soon~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KUNG SHIAO TAN!!! (Part 1)

1:27am 16/10/2009
In front of my laptop
What am I doing?
doing same thing as yesterday, nothing special.
facebook-ing, fishing, farming etc.
oh ya, today is different, I blogging. :p

Quite boring, right? I think so.
Anyway, my birthday is not pass yet.
Tonight will celebrate with 2 groups of best friends.
From 6pm to 12am 17/10/2009, i think, at least. :)
kakakaka.....can't close my mouth....keep smiling....:)

But, think about it, 25 years old.
you know! It's 25, I am 25 years old!!!
Goodness!!
Half of my life is gone.

This is my birthday blog part 1.
Gonna post some photos later with my birthday celebration.
I am looking forward of it.
hehe....

Thanks for the wishes 1st!!!

See you at my birthday blog part 2....

Bye...gonna sleep lo...

may be do a mask 1st before I sleep.. :p

Nick Vujicic的话语

刚看完Nick Vujicic的短片。
给了我很大的启发。
不是所有人都像他一样勇敢。
但是，人可以创造奇迹。


有几句他说的话是我觉得是非常值得深思的：

If you try to follow what your friends do just because you don't want to be left out, you start losing yourself, you start to put your security in temporary things, you start to put your happiness in things that will not last!!

2. I will try 100 times to get up and if I fail in 100 times, if I fail and I give up, do you think am I going to get up? NO! If I fail, i try again and again and again, it's only I try so that has a chance to get up. It's not the end if you try to get up. There are still a hope.

3. When people put you down, you start to believe the lie around you saying that you are not good enough, you are not good enough and no one going to want you, you never ever do anything good in your life, you never ever archive the dreams you wish to have that but which you could do. If you close to the voice saying that you are not good enough, you are not good enough. You will need one more step to fall. You have a choice, see which step you going to take today.

4. I don't care how you are, you are just awesome just the way you are. So many teenagers who look themselves at the mirror and wish they have a different body. Girls, you beautiful just the way you are. You are gorgeous, you are gorgeous! I love you just the way you are!

不要放弃，只要一直尝试，一定能成功！
不要迷失自己，做真正的自己。
只有真正的自己才最迷人。


共勉之...

Watch this video from youtube:
1. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BnT9vIX048E&feature=related
2. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NTVGbwlAoqo&feature=related
3. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H2m68D-hXvw&feature=fvw

私人空间

私人空间，一个属于自己的地方。
好喜欢那张床。
下雨天，开着窗，风扇在转，播放悠悠的音乐，手里再拿着一本书，依在靠近天花板的上铺，看看窗外的雨景，享受着悠闲的一天。心情特好吧？
微乱的下床铺，乱成一团的被，透视我随性的性格。对吧？
一个挂满衣和围巾的衣架，说整齐又谈不上，也算随性吧？呵...



大热天时，绝对不能少了它，我可不想一边看书，一边满身大汗呢！



简单的摆设，但是都是充满回忆的宝贝。看看啊...有什么...和好友一起拍的毕业合照，一只毕了业的狮子，一个PYPY家庭的杯子，几张充满回忆的相片，一个特大纪念杯。



看起来蛮有文化气息的书柜。这里是一小部分，一些在床底的箱子里睡着觉，一些搭飞机去了马来西亚的另一端，婆罗洲了。还有一小部分的笔记、课本和字典。通常都是摆美的，没在翻。
哈！忍不住要冷讥一声，不知自己原有平静的生活哪去了。怎么整天往外跑了呢？原有的生活不是更充实吗？在家翻翻书，听听歌，睡个觉，不是更悠闲自在吗？何苦往外自找苦吃呢？

嗯！无聊吧？是蛮无聊的，我想我是疯了，才会废话连篇！原谅我！我只是想找回失去的过去、找回失去的自我、找回往日的自由。

我想我是累了......

不愿生活再也只是围绕着你们打转！

想了很久，朋友有几个？
知心的有几个，点头之交有几个？
可以分享心事的有几个？只能谈笑的有几个？
在身边的有几个？在远处的有几个？
愿意听你埋怨的有几个？愿意向你埋怨又有几个？

发现朋友越来越少，是自找的吧？
以为自己很好，其实在别人眼中只不过是小丑。
以为自己待人亲切，其实是只人人都怕的母老虎。
以为朋友多得数不清，其实是在逃避，不敢数。
以为生活多姿多彩，其实只是围绕着你们打转！

我不想了，我不要了，我拒绝！
我要过我自己的生活！

你们走吧！

我走了！

无语

今早开了一封Phoebe的电邮，其实我早知是那种诅咒的信件，我早知他每次都寄这种邮件，我还是决定打开它，然后我祷告，告诉我亲爱的主说：“主啊！你要用你大能的手来坚定我的思想，也求你帮助这些受魔鬼影响的人，让他们醒悟！” 然后，就像以往一样，我删除了那封电邮。可以想见，我的思想有多么的坚定，我相信主会保护我。

但是，在收到 es 的messenger时，我突然犹疑一下，是不是报应来得如此快、如此突然？

主啊！原谅我！我相信你一直在我身边帮助着我。这一扇门关了，你会为我开另一扇窗。

希望今天发生的事件也一样。

今天es 通知我说：“i wan to tell u guys, i can't go Melaka dy. dat day my company got system go live, so i can't go.”

这个突如其来的消息，我呆了，过了大概20分钟，我才问他：“confirm already??”

他又说：“Yes. Good Luck. Today confirm.”

我真的无语了。敷衍的应了一声“哦”，就不知该讲什么了。

他又接着说：“i will not be attending any rehearsal anymore from today onwards， no use to go practice oso dy.”

是这样的吗？我可不可以要求你回来帮忙呢？我不敢问，怕那问题又丢回来给我，我不懂的回答。

一次又一次，我的信心总是被人打击。

我的心是肉做的，有血有泪。

我不是在怪es，而是我埋怨把所有的事都推给我的人。

我知道，那是我下的决定，把它揽上身。但是，我以为我们会合作，至少我知道有人陪我一起做 ，轻松很多。但结果呢？什么问题来了，都只会是在我身上，都只是把矛头指向我。

我知道我的日子过得很悠闲，好像没有烦恼。但其实，我有！只是你们不知道！我有多少私事是你们知道的？你们又有多了解我？　

在与es的conversation后的几个小时，又和Jennifer谈话，那时，我崩溃了！哭得死去活来，几乎晕倒。 当时，他给我一个强烈的信息是：有人在骗我，他要在我无助时离这个团队而去。他给的原因不是原因。为什么要骗我？是不是在你心里，我永远还是你的junior，不能知道真正的原因？

其实你明明就经历过我所经历的一切，为什么你还要抛弃我、抛弃这个团队？

你明明可以设身处地的想到现在的我有多么的痛苦！还是，你希望我经历与你一样的经历？

明明知道我在他们一直说要quit时，我有多伤心，为什么你还要在我伤口上撒盐？他们不会觉得有什么，但我不同，我是ORGANISER！多好听的名称啊！就因为这个名称，我就必须被孤立吗？还是被弄得里外不是人吗？

这么多年，为什么我在团队里老是被说是两头蛇？我很想大家都坦坦白白的说话，但是两边却不这么做，而我老是在传话！最后，惹得自己一身腥。其实，我也很心甘情愿，两边不讨好不要紧，看看最后大家还是团结一起，最后大家还是上了台，拿到想要的，我就很满足，所有事，我也忘了。只记得倒数下一次再聚在一起练习的时候。想起那些发生的不愉快，也觉得是一个甜蜜的过程。

这一次，我也好想抛开一切！好想放开！只是因为诚信，那沉重的包袱，我没敢放手！我也不想失去大家对我的期望，所以我硬是把它扛起来！其实，只要大家合作，我就会乐意扛下去，不管多久。真的！不管多久！这并不难，不是吗？我真的很容易满足。我只是希望大家与我走的路是同一个方向，同一个脚步，同一个阶段，因为我们是一个团队。

知道为何昨天我那么伤心吗？我伤心，因为所有我觉得会帮助我的人，却在开会的时候，全跑掉了，出去外面开自己的会议。我觉得好像两边都不是我的团队。我一个人在孤军作战。他们让我觉得我只是一座桥梁。而在房里的人，只会把我推出去，看着我先沉溺，看着我如何在水里挣扎，看着我如何从沼泽里挣脱而出。我看着应该与我并肩坐战的人，我指望它会帮我开口，但他却静静的不出声，我知道一个道理，人是为了自己而活，你的生死与他人无关。对吧？

两边的思想，我都觉得好陌生。看着外面比我大的，再看看里面比我小的，我不知他们是不是在说我做得不对、是不是在说我没资格？我老是在胡思乱想。但是不由得我不想！

还有，那些永远有忙不完的事情的人，要开心唱我懂，每个人都有工作，我也懂，但是，既然你自己的思想答应了，你是不是应该尽你的责任呢？在尽你责任同时，大家都会很开心的唱歌，那也达到了＂ｓｉｎｇ　ｆｏｒ　ｆｕｎ＂的宗旨，不是吗？

就是因为知道大家有工作，我们才选择最不忙的一天，星期日来练习。大家都同意的日子，不是吗？那是不是应该把那个时间空下来呢？而不是永远在那时间碰巧有忙不完的事。　

经历了这么多年，我们ｒｕｌｅｓ　ａｎｄ　ｒｅｇｕｌａｔｉｏｎｓ　不是应该可以背得滚瓜烂熟了吗？

知道现在的我怎么坚持吗？　我只能靠着想象来坚持我所该做的事。

我只能想像着，５／９我们在台上开心的唱着歌，想象着我们唱完后，又多么满足，多么开心。

也只有那个想像力，能让我不倒下！让我坚持告诉你们我不会说退出这个词！

主啊！现在的我，真的需要靠你来宁静我的心灵，靠你来洗净我的思想，丢掉所有不愉快，丢掉所有忧虑！愿主的圣灵与我同在，阿门！

Miss her..

Thinking of her again...
How many times for today??
10 or 15 times??
How often I miss her today??
every second when I have nothing to do??
I am really miss her..

How many days we never contact each other??
1 month? or 2 months??
after CNY, right?
I wrote message in my cell phone,
but delete it every time when I tried to send it out.
I have no courage to send it out.
I just can share everything with her in my heart, deeply...

I hope to share my happiness and sadness with her.
Let her know that:
my choir got champion 5 years in a row;
I had a wonderful trip at Batu Pahat;
I went to Umaiya eat bufffet;
I almost finish my 2nd semester in UM;
I was sad when my bro and sister kept argueing;
I was sad when my bro took my 2 cute nieces to go Solomon;
............

I share everything with her since we met again at secondary school,
since we became the best friend in the world..
that is no way for me to turn back, is it?
that is no way for me to win her back, is it?


I am really really miss her!!
absolutely miss her!!

I wanna cry...
the eyes just too dry..
no tears comes out..

my heart feels pain,
is it cry inside??

Can I just forget her?
Can I just look forward??

Strawberry Field Cafe - Opposite MBPJ - PJ New Town

Found a nice restaurant to go recently...

STRAWBERRY FIELD

Ehm...went there for at least 5 times with same friends,
Gathering,
YamCha,
Celebration,
Dinner
......

This is one of my favorite cafe to go except of The Island, SS2.
Ya...
Strawberry Field located at Menara MBPJ, just opposite.


The one I like the most is...

1. Cabonara Seafood



The creamy sauce + the seafood + spaghetti... oh!! my favorite!! yummy yummy!!

2. Thai Green Curry Chicken Mee



Looks bad, right? Why I like? Just because It's hot!! Actually it's salty and a bit oily. But, the spiciness really make me sooo excited!! kekeke....

3. The drinks



Strawberry Milk Shake, Orange Juice Jambo, Green Apple Juice Jambo The right drinks is orange juice too, i think. Anyway, the juicy drinks really fresh!
Worth!

4. MaPo ToFu Rice (Spicy)



Not spicy actually. But I like Tofu!!

5. Strawberry Field Fried Udon



Seems like Hokkien Mee. Taste not bad.

6. Butter Cream Sauce Seafood Rice



For me, of course Island Cafe's Butter Cream Sauce Chicken Rice better than this la... The sauce at Island cafe is more creamy!! Anyway, this one also not bad to try la..

7. Kenyit Chicen Rice




ya....forget to mention of the soup there..
The Tomato Soup is really perfect!!
Really tomato!
kekeke...
But I forgot to take the picture.
Do upload next time when I go there again...